What Makes the World Go Round?

I am always confident that I can handle  my own craziness. But as often as I am confident is as frequent as my heart is crushed. Finally, I have to admit that in no way am I capable of managing my insanity when it comes to men. I have not learned my lessons well. Or, I just refuse to learn. I am at loss for words and for emotions. However, I do know that I am crazy and foolish.

You don’t have to point out the so-many times I cried because someone broke my heart again. Or the countless times, I thought I was falling in love with someone who has the power to make the butterflies in my stomach flutter every time I see him. I will not count the times I swore never to fall in love because I am never good at keeping my promises – not when it comes to the matters of the heart.

Sometimes, I can bear the sight of ghastly mathematical equations rather than this tormenting feeling of restlessness and self-loathing.  I can’t even look myself in the mirror because I feel so ashamed.

I think I.Q. test should also gauge a person’s capacity to love, or the capacity to understand that love does not make the world go round. Contrary to popular belief, the magnetic fields of the earth make the world go round and NOT LOVE.

Heaven, let me remember that!

~ by 32flavors on September 21, 2009.